Allowing Myself

…to feel, to love, to be.

Tag: memory keeping

Five Year Plan

“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” ~Annie Dillard

I believe that small, daily habits build our lives, so of course I love the idea of this 5 year, one-line-per-day journal. Since I received this little book as a Christmas gift (thanks E!) I started January 1st 2015.

Each night, I write a little bit about the day. So far, I’ve missed an evening or two (usually b/c I’m tired and turn off the light before I remember) but it’s simple enough to fill it in the next morning. It has 5 entries per page, with each page being one day of the year. You fill in the year and a little blurb about your day.

I’m only 6 weeks into it, so there’s no spectacular a-ha moment. The nightly reflection is nice, but the real reward will be over the next few years, as I revisit my previous entry for each date. So much can happen in 5 years…

Since 2010:
– this blog was started
– we adopted Carter Cash
– we got engaged (and then married)
– we went on our epic Grand Canyon trip (and had yet to visit Hawaii or Alaska)
– my job was different and has only gotten better
– my siblings didn’t live near me in CA
– my relationship with my parents was not so good
– I attended my first retreat, and took many an online class
– a few of my really good girlfriends still lived here
– I started therapy
– I was just beginning to experiment with photography again
– I’d never had a life coach
rock climbing was not a thing
– I was still in my 20s
– I didn’t know how to take care of myself. I certainly hustled for my worthiness.
– I hadn’t read Harry Potter yet.

So yeah, a lot can happen in 5 years. Looking forward to having this small, memory-keeping habit capture and reflect on my days and our lives.

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Creative Play

This week’s been full of meetings, discussions, talking, listening, spacing out, feeling overwhelmed and skipping out on To Dos. And yet, it seems this week is just the right turn of the dial to click me back into place. All of those events, traveling, people – ugh. March 18th through April 20th was high energy, it was productive, driven, busy.

Notice how it aligned right with Sun in Aries. And as the Sun shifted to Taurus, so did my energy.

I can feel my energy settling (almost too much – exercise is way down and feeling a bit heavy is up). I am sleeping well but a tad too much. I am skirting responsibilities, indulging in art, craving whole foods and wanting to slow down. My brain feels sans of thoughts, and then, a burst of information will come pouring through.

When feeling particularly blah this week, I pulled out Danielle Laporte‘s Fire Starter Sessions and took notes with colored markers. Inspiring and relaxing – and totally indulgent. This may seem like such a whatever activity, but for me to shut off the computer, leave the laundry in a pile and focus, man – good things can happen.

I spent most of the week either wasting time on other people’s schedules or trying to un-knot a problem. I’m confident the knot is unraveled (for now). I processed 90 emails, did two loads of laundry and gave the dog a bath. Also started a class (Clean & Simple– which I’m super excited about), went to trivia night and basically enjoyed the quiet of having my apartment to myself. Just letting things go along, indulging in some creative play and chillin’.

Looking forward to a relaxing weekend with friends xo.