Allowing Myself

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Tag: reflecting

Five Year Plan

“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” ~Annie Dillard

I believe that small, daily habits build our lives, so of course I love the idea of this 5 year, one-line-per-day journal. Since I received this little book as a Christmas gift (thanks E!) I started January 1st 2015.

Each night, I write a little bit about the day. So far, I’ve missed an evening or two (usually b/c I’m tired and turn off the light before I remember) but it’s simple enough to fill it in the next morning. It has 5 entries per page, with each page being one day of the year. You fill in the year and a little blurb about your day.

I’m only 6 weeks into it, so there’s no spectacular a-ha moment. The nightly reflection is nice, but the real reward will be over the next few years, as I revisit my previous entry for each date. So much can happen in 5 years…

Since 2010:
– this blog was started
– we adopted Carter Cash
– we got engaged (and then married)
– we went on our epic Grand Canyon trip (and had yet to visit Hawaii or Alaska)
– my job was different and has only gotten better
– my siblings didn’t live near me in CA
– my relationship with my parents was not so good
– I attended my first retreat, and took many an online class
– a few of my really good girlfriends still lived here
– I started therapy
– I was just beginning to experiment with photography again
– I’d never had a life coach
rock climbing was not a thing
– I was still in my 20s
– I didn’t know how to take care of myself. I certainly hustled for my worthiness.
– I hadn’t read Harry Potter yet.

So yeah, a lot can happen in 5 years. Looking forward to having this small, memory-keeping habit capture and reflect on my days and our lives.


The Grateful Season – Showing Up

Saturday I learned how to knit – finally. I kept thinking “I want to learn how to knit” and on Friday a friend’s roommate was all “come over tomorrow and I’ll show you”. Done and done. So I showed up.

During my e-course I mentioned a blogger who I admire. Randi encouraged me to reach out, so I did. I showed up.

Today, I did a site visit for work. These are no big deal. I figured I’d be done in 35min or less. But as I was ready to leave the supervisor suggested the intern and I get coffee. I didn’t have another appointment, so I said sure.

And I’m so glad I did.

The young girl I met with was stressed, dealing with a lot of pressure both on herself and through her family. I felt so honored to be sitting there listening to her vent, brainstorm and become a little more confident. She went from tears to relaxed.

And this reminds me that my worth in this world is about showing up. Not hustling, not performing, not even perfecting. It’s about being there for other people and reflecting back to them the light they shine.


For the month of November, I write each day about something I’m grateful for and call it Grateful Season. It’s my way of reviewing the amazing year I’ve had and helps me focus on blogging during the crazy holiday season uptick. Feel free to join me – just make sure you let me know!