Allowing Myself

…to feel, to love, to be.

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Monthly Nutshell – January 2013

Well, January was quite the introduction to 2013, no?
Here’s my month is a nutshell in case you missed anything.

…said Thank you to 2012 and Welcome to 2013

…wrote nothing is wrong with you, which was more about me telling myself, nothing is wrong with me.

… hiked with my sister (back from her road trip) and we got some epic (puppy) photos.

…(we) celebrated 6 months of marriage. Here’s what I’ve learned so far.

Ease found me.

…tried an e-course that isn’t working for me, but I’m saving the emails b/c I think it will soon.

Carter found himself some freedom, accidentally and on purpose.

…read almost three books, experienced a terrible hangover and made pancakes here.

…started my Project Life pages.

…felt impermanence and rituals and time.

…spent time with friends. We experienced a killer of a Monday holiday, up at 5am.

…ran 5 events in 4 days. Then it was done. I practiced self-care. Cafe Gratitude came into my life. I rested some more. There is always an ebb and flow.

…participated in the cultivating courage e-course by Andrea Scher.

This Grateful Season – On The Other Side

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And here we are – one the other side of November as it turns into December – from the grateful season to the holiday season. We decorated last week but still have ornaments to make and a tree to purchase and trim.

Now I have an understanding of what I’ve gone through in the past 3 months. Each Autumn I think I’ve got this covered – H will go back to work, my event season will kick in, we’ll be on coming off our summer vacation. Even though it’s a transitional period, now that I know it, I can handle it, even use it to my own good.

But no. The travel, events, lack of routine, big changes (grad school. sister) Saturn shift and Mercury retrograde slammed over me like waves, again and again. It was a busy season. It was a learning season.

And in many ways, the upswing of intensity and then halt of energy, like a boiling pot with a lid on it, arrived right in time to sweep me along and teach me a few things. It all brought me back to myself.

The Maybe Baby course is coming to an end. I’m concentrating on giving myself what I need, not depending on others. Acknowledging that I’m picking up other people’s energy but I don’t need to carry it. Getting my running shoes on. Napping. Organizing and doing work, but trying to release the pressure. Enjoying the time I have. Seeing the urges of (future) motherhood manifesting in the need to nest and for long-term projects. Thinking about plans, but still just letting things settle.

I have high hopes for December to close out this amazing year of trust, love and learning. And I am grateful – oh so grateful.

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For the month of November, I write each day about something I’m grateful for and call it Grateful Season. It’s my way of reviewing the amazing year I’ve had and helps me focus on blogging during the crazy holiday season uptick. Feel free to join me – just make sure you let me know!